Sunday, September 6, 2015

The Haze Did Not Help

Tidaklah seorang muslim tertimpa suatu penyakit dan sejenisnya, melainkan Allah akan mengugurkan bersamanya dosa-dosanya seperti pohon yang mengugurkan daun-daunnya”.

(HR. Bukhari no. 5660 dan Muslim no. 2571).

“Tidaklah seseorang muslim ditimpa keletihan, penyakit, kesusahan, kesedihan, gangguan, kegundah-gulanan hingga duri yang menusuknya, melainkan Allah akan menghapuskan sebagian dari kesalahan-kesalahannya”.(HR. Bukhari no. 5641).

“Tidaklah menimpa seorang mukmin rasa sakit yang terus menerus, kepayahan, penyakit, dan juga kesedihan, bahkan sampai kesusahan yang menyusahkannya, melainkan akan dihapuskan dengan dosa-dosanya”. (HR. Muslim no. 2573).

Have been very sick for the past 2 weeks. The doctor had increased the antibiotics dose. Initially I thought it was just the normal fever and cough. But when I became weaker and weaker, lost my voice and all, I suspected dengue. 

However, towards the end of the 2nd week when I had to go for an xray, the clinic referred me to Prince Court Medical Centre and there I was admitted here since Friday. The lung specialist said, it started with lung infection and because of the antibiotics, it had subsided although my left chest is still full of phelgm and I am wheezing. Never have I suffered this, a bit weird when I hear myself wheeze as I sleep. Now it is acute bronchitis and the doctor is giving all the best medication to make my air duct or whatever it is called (no wonder I get C6 for my biology) expand to clear the tightness. 

So here I am in PCMC resting and getting the best care and attention and lots of TLC from family and friends.

I think I will be here til Tuesday which means I will miss the Leadership course starting from tomorrow in Putrajaya for a week with a whole duration of 3 months module. The  President of P***** will share his personal journey as he officiates it tomorrow, gonna miss that and hopefully if they defer my participation to the next round he will still be the one officiating. There are only 15 of us. Although it will be a gruelling one, I like management training with few people participating. It will be very engaging.

Anyways, note to myself, will have to take greater care of myself especially when age is not really a number anymore. Although there is a reason we fall sick as per the hadith above, we still have to do our best to mitigate it.

Have a good week ahead ...

Sunday, May 24, 2015

When The Going Gets Tough ...

Husband left a week ago and the plan was for him to attend to the Rohingyas who landed in Kedah. He is supposed to be away for two weeks and at the rate that things are going, I am not sure whether he would return next week. Maybe he would, just to take a fresh set of clothing's and then off he go again. At times, I realize that I take him for granted. When he is around, I just love to pick on him. Bila dah tak ada ni, macam miss pulak cos nobody to talk to and banter. The Aces are around, not all the time full quorum because the 1st and 2nd Aces would return home and go back to their respective universities during weekends. Nonetheless, they do keep me company, especially meal times and TV watching times, otherwise biasalah buat hal masing-masing.

Work is as usual, endless. As Monday appears, I wish that Friday is fast to arrive. Relieved when Friday arrives cos that marks a weekend. During weekends, I just want to stay at home, relax and do nothing. But when I realize that Sunday is almost over, I would ask myself, where has the weekend gone, what did I do during this time, can I have another day off, etc etc. If only we can work 2 days and rest for 5 days in a week, kan heaven!

At work, I think I have lost my mojo. My time management sucks. My participation in meetings, is like from a scale of 1 to 10, I fail miserably. I always give a rating on my participation and contribution in the  meetings that I attended. So far since the time I continued working in Oct last year, the highest scale that I have reached is 5! Pernah once I rated myself a 2! Below the line betul. Bang my head - I need to buck up. A friend suggested to read this book Stand Out by Dorie Clark. I must look for this book next time I drop by at Kinokuniya. Hope it will motivate me or if not change me. I wonder if my contribution at work commensurates with my earnings. The scariest part is, if it doesn't, apa nak jawab di akhirat esok. Eee .... takut.

Tomorrow is Monday and hopefully this week is better although I know things will start even busier. Looking forward to next weekend cos there will be a retreat in Ipoh. Nice!

I have in my mind the one below at the moment. In syaa Allah it is for the better.

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Saturday Morning Work-Out

A couple of years ago during INSEAD management training which I attended, the organizer did not only organize the business management syllabus for us, there were also physical training; either we went to the gym or we did the aerobics. The physical training instructor was this 44 year old lady who was very very fit and everyone would easily guess that she is only in her mid 30s. Almost every day when I went for the work-outs led by her, I wondered if I could be like her when I reached her age. Without realizing it, she was an inspiration.

I am not a person who exercises diligently or who has its fixed schedule as to when to run on the treadmill. I do jog and brisk walk once a while whenever I am free. It will just be a walk at the park nearby the house, or swim at hotel during outstation trips or vacation, and now the latest "craze" is climbing hills. Well not that I do them often, baru dua bukit sudah panjat i.e. Bukit Gasing and Bukit Broga. More often than not, I would do a bit more extra work-out when I realize that my thighs are touching each other as I walk, or when I cannot buckle my pants or sarong yang sepatutnya ada dua jari kelonggarannya. That is the KPI weight for me.

On a different story, my 5th Ace who will be taking his taekwondo black belt grading in 3 weeks time has been procrastinating in building up his stamina. As part of the grading qualification, he has to run 5 km in 30 minutes. He promised me that he would jog in the evenings yet when I returned from office these past days, I always found him sound asleep. This has been going on for two weeks.

I don't exactly remember but I think last night I must have dreamt about KLCC and Twin Towers, the place I used to work.

The Twin Towers 

So this morning after knowing that the husband has left to the airport as early at 3 am, and today is not a day for grocery shopping, I forced the 5th Ace to follow me to KLCC Park. Liat betul nak bangun and after the show of the rotan and much threats (including mama is not talking to him for the weekend and surrendering his handphone), he had to budge ( yes!! Mama memang terror in this episode when it comes to the 5th one, to the dismay of the 4th one ).

5th Ace

The 4th Ace obligingly followed as she just need to de-stress herself from the ongoing exams. Anyway, she is becoming some like a health freak, hence a piece of cake to persuade her, unless she is so mengantuk or moody.

I love jogging at the KLCC Park because of the running track. It doesn't make you feel easily tired. For the 4th Ace and the 5th Ace, this is their first time here. Well maybe no. I think I have brought them here before when they were small to play at the water park. The water park is closed now.

Black pairs of shoes seem to be the trend now

We jogged and ran for three rounds together with other regulars. Haish!! Envy their fitness level. There were other activities going on, the yoga and the bootcamp. I wish I am more fit to do these. I gave up yoga because it was just too painful to stretch and bootcamp is never in my dictionary. They say no pain, no gain. For me, I am satisfied that I can still run at this age, bukanlah to qualify for marathon, but suffice to make me feel good. And that I could be marked at par with that then 44 year old lady training instructor.

Mama with her purple dumb bell